so it's that bad huh? i'm in an emergency and i'm not okay? damn. well, hopefully i'm alive, and not in the hospital, but hey, if i'm dead, oh well, at least i had fun while i was on this mudball of a planet.
if i'm in the hospital, well, then call my emergency contacts, which are as follows:
My Mother - 203-830-9085
My Dad - 203-770-3502
both of which are American numbers, though i doubt i would get hurt in another country but if i did then bonus points for me. also, if you need to know how to call internationally, This Site has all the information you'll need. also please try and notify my friends in my discord server, which you can join by clicking This Link, it's where almost all, if not all (if i even have any when i get hurt) my friends are, and they'll want to know what happened to me, so telling them i'm in a situation like this would be vastly appreciated, also send them the link to this site please, so they can contact the people who are in my emergency contacts if they also want to know more and stay updated
as for wishes if i'm in a coma or something, if i need limbs amputated or something, here's what i want followed
let me die in my sleep if i lose, have lost, or need to have the following limbs/joints amputated:
(for clarification of what i mean by this, if i'm in a coma and need to lose these limbs or have them amputated or whatever, let me die in my sleep, take off the life support, no breathing tube, just leave me alone with a heart monitor, and if i flatline, well, then fuck me, i'm fine with dying, and do not resuscitate)
2 or more fingers on the same hand, any two.
one of my thumbs, or both
one of my knees, or both
one of my hips and full leg, or both.
one of my wrists, or both.
one of my elbows, or both.
one of my shoulders and a full arm, or both.
however, if i need to lose the following:
one of my feet, or both
one of my ankles, or both
only one finger (not a thumb) on each hand.
DO YOUR BEST TO KEEP ME ALIVE, do everything in your power to keep me alive as you normally would.
for medications i take 0.15mg of Estradiol Valerate weekly
notes: i have anxiety, BPD, DID, and Autism. the anxiety will probably make me being extremely worried if i wake up in a hospital, the BPD will make me paranoid of this or that, so please just have someone there to answer my questions when i wake up, without question, the Autism will contribute because i hate being restrained or trapped, so DO NOT do anything to make me feel like that please, and just be aware of it, and the DID will contribute because not all of the Alters in my system are the best/kindest, so please forgive us if they come out and seem angry or upset, also don't attack or provoke them, because some are very VERY defensive.
if you scrolled here and are reading, well, then i guess i'm dead. if i died, i'd like someone to calculate my score in life using a stupid game i made Called Killscore, and figure out who, or what earned that score, and keep a note of whatever or whoever got that score, and if possible, put the score and who/what received it on the backside of my gravestone, for example: "270 KillScore to Gravity" or something, and link the site as well if possible. as for calculating score as to how i did in life, that can be left to my legacy which will hopefully be insane, chaotic, and fucking amazing and full of lots of random shit.
when i die, i want a full on festival near the graveyard where i'm buried, like a whole party in a huge field with one huge tent, invite everyone and anyone i care about and/or like for the first day of it (i'll probably make a list of people like this somewhere), and have it be partly a funeral ceremony thing only for the people i like or care about, also, if there's a single fucking pastor or someone like that there, KICK THEM OUT, i don't want some "oh god's love will keep us strong" or whatever bullshit being said there, no, if any religious figure is coming to speak in the ceremony, it better be someone from The Satanic Church, otherwise the person speaking will be someone i manually select in my Living Will, and if someone there wants someone from another faith there, they can deal with there being nobody, or they can leave. people are perfectly capable of mourning without a religious figure/representative there. then, as for the next day, this will be open for anyone, and they can invite anyone they want, basically, if you know someone there, you're welcome to come, and if you see it happening, you're welcome to join, the theme is encouraging bad decisions, chaos, stupidity, and essentially encouraging people to do anything and everything they might be afraid to, and doing anything and everything that they may be afraid to do, take their shots, do stuff they never thought to do, basically, just encourage utter chaos and fun and enjoyment (within reason, like no encouraging deadly stuff). i want this festival to immortalize me in the minds of all who participate, in true satanic fashion. life after death through fulfillment of the ego. and if anyone wants to keep it going, GO FOR IT, call it the Nebula Night Festival or something of the sort, as long as i'm mentioned there on a sign, like "in memory of the person who wanted this tradition to start" or something, keep it going, keep this festival going for years to come. also keep my websites alive and running for the world to see if that's possible. i want my legacy to inspire people to do what they never thought possible.